In a time where we’re spending our time isolated, I’m learning ways to connect to connect to more people.

This new journey and path we’re all on is weird to be honest, but I’ve spent a long time hoping for change and this may be the start of a new chapter.

To be completely real we were all heading down a dark consuming path, but now we’ve finally slowed down. We have given Mother Nature a final chance to spread her wings. Flowers to bloom and birds to sing, beckoning spring to take over. I think most of us couldn’t be more grateful. I know that I am.

I know I haven’t written anything in a while. But, in my defense I’m like that with everyone. I tend to be outgoing at first and as time passes I grow to be a little more sedentary and less willing to go out. My motivation for a lot of things kind of zeroed out.

Quarantine has really tested my limits in how far I will go! I haven’t really left my bed or room in about two weeks. I’m not entirely proud of that. But, most of my days I would wake up at 10am and go to the kitchen to drink a cup of coffee. Then I’d mosey back to my room to open a book, falling asleep after an hour or two. But, quarantine sleep has really been the deepest sleep I’ve ever experienced. So naturally I wouldn’t wake back up until 5pm or 6pm, just in time for dinner. I would eat a tiny meal, knowing there wasn’t a super need to fill up since I slept all day. Before, I knew it the day was over and it was time to sleep again.

This isolation time feels both syrup slow and also blinking fast.

I find it kind of hard to believe that it’s been over a month already.

But, I’ve been trying to be productive. My only problem is that I bounce from place to place. My mind struggles to focus on one project at a time. But, maybe I should just choose happiness for right now. I could definitely use more of that.

I’m on a pursuit of language learning. It’s always been something that I’ve wanted to do. But, it somehow became this impossible feat. I’m studying Spanish in hopes that it’ll make my transition to Spain a bit easier. But, mostly because I need a win.

I feel like I’ve lost a lot. Though, I am grateful. It feels like all of the sources of joy that I had before are now gone. Now, I have to find new mediums.

It’s a new chapter.

And I’m finally ready.